Lana - Entry 25

I’ve started heading back in the direction of Meraview. I figure that the man Sal told me about was a lie. If he had wanted the coin so badly why had he waited so long to try and take it? I guess I’m a murderer now. I murdered Sal. I guess I have also murdered Madeline but that was a little more indirect. I’m not happy or sad, I just feel numb. I just walk and rest and then walk some more surrounded by a grey mean world. In the few moments where my mind forgets about what has happened I’ll suddenly miss him and everything comes crashing back. I’ve had to stop and I just curl up hugging my knees to my chest. I lay like that for hours before getting up and doing it all over again.