Lana - Entry 47

It’s been days of her silly, non-stop pace. I just couldn’t keep up any longer. When she woke me to leave I could barely move. I told her I couldn’t go on, that she would have to continue without me, that I wanted to with all my heart but I just could keep going. She seemed to have an internal debate. I watched her shift her weight from one foot to the other and back again. For a moment I really thought that she was going to leave me. I almost cried I wanted her to stay so bad. I think she saw the look on my face and knew how much I didn’t want her to go because she decided to stay.

She sighed and said that we’ve probably gone far enough and that it was going to be dark soon. Why not have a fire, a warm meal and few hours of sleep and then move on. I told her that that was all I needed. Just a little rest and then I wouldn’t let her down. I’d be able to keep up. She looked relieved, I know I was. In the moment I thought she was going to leave me I’ve never felt so alone. I couldn’t imagine the world without her. Not now. If I had to go back to walking through this world alone it would kill me.

But we had a small fire and a hot meal and I could tell that she was just as tried as I was. She needed this too. A few hours of sleep now and we’ll be right as rain.