Well, I’m still here. And I’ve decided I’m not going to go anywhere any time soon, so long as I can help it. Madeline gave her life to save mine; that’s just the fact of the matter, it is what it is and I can’t change that. But I wont let her sacrifice be in vain. I’m going to break this curse. I am going to live.
Over the last few days I’ve given my predicament a lot of thought. The only people I know that might be able to help me are the Malakai. Clearly not Pan (cowardice traitor that she is) but there must be others. And Eve, maybe she can help me. I am going to stop hiding, stop avoiding people, stop feeling sorry for myself and I am going to find someone who can help me. I know that Eve’s sister is in Meraview, so that’s where I’m going… just as soon as I can find out which direction its in. Along the way I’m going to ask everyone I come across about other Malakai, there must be others out there. It might not be the best plan but it’s the only one I have been able to come up with, so that’s what I’m going to do.
I took out the coin that Madeline had given me and for the first time I really looked at it. It looks like it is made of silver and its very thin. I’m sure I could bend it if I tried. It is very smooth with sharp edges. On one side there is a ‘U’ and inside it a circle with two parallel lines running through it. The markings are raised. I’ve started playing with it in my pocket as I’ve been walking, while running my thumb over them. I don’t know why but it gives me some comfort. On the other side of the coin the letters ‘LE’ seemed to be scratched onto it. Madeline must have done it for me, ‘Lana Entry’ the name my parents had given me. She was trying to find a way to fix me, which means she thought it could be done. So, I’m going to Meraview!